Conceived a long time, want to write something, record "to the recent six months," the bitter history of betting, both a recall and finishing, but also repentance and reflection.
Involved in gambling for five years, these five years, many times alone from home, while traveling, while betting, betting brings me a lot of stimulation, grief, sweet, dream life.
I itself is ordinary grass-roots, not much spare cash, there is not much of vicious, once the maximum bet amount is 2000 yuan, once a day, lost the 8000 yuan, once a day, the net profit of 3,000 yuan, has been more than ten consecutive days a net profit of more than one thousand yuan,
Once at the time of the last $ 200 to 4:00 (50-fold) 120 yuan hit dice, once in the last one when the 50 yuan hit a pair baccarat, roulette once hit 70 yuan solitary Ding (36 times) once in a baccarat and value of the last 10 yuan, 10 yuan had hit the Keno 800 yuan.
Had their hands blown call, who stamp their feet crying, I had no money to return home, once complacent, once physical and mental exhaustion, who had become ......
Too many have too much once, too much!
I believe that the "vast majority" of the bloggers and I have similar experience, can not escape "lose big win small, win more than lose less," the fate or outcome, but it can not be self aside, it is difficult gambling, winning or losing time about their feelings and passion, we lost hundreds of thousands have been numb, but won 10 dollars you can make yourself excited, feel ED Fortuna and Gamblers stepped into the step.
Every day immersed in self-esteem and self-blame, always ruthless swore himself mentally retarded and stupid B, but is relying on the support of this elusive dream struggled to live with us, day after day, year after year ......
Among us there is no shortage of high-quality high intelligence who, many of them are surrounded by positive energy, there are many are doing the Chinese dream,
But we chose to stay away from a family, away from friends, no hope, no tomorrow, no return.
